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Tuesday, June 29, 2010,

Used To Be A Kids

QiQi <3

It my first day of work as a childcare teacher ....
Ok you didn see wrong, it a childcare teacher ...

Nowaday kids is so smart, so active ... more active than QiQi ...
Im already tired out on my first day haha ...
But the kids is cute, they are so innocent :) it remind me of my primary school life ..
Back than, I was so Quiet n conserve, teacher thought I was Zi bi haha...

But now, Im 20 this year, I have grown up, I have change so much ...
I talk more, more cheerful, more smile on my face, I realise how I should face my Problem and My Life ...

I dunno how many times I have fall on this 20 years path ...
And hw i struggle to get myself up again ...

Everything thing seem like a cycle ... When I was a kid, i wish that im a grown up teenage, NOW Im a grown up teenage, but I wish I was back as a kid again :)
It's funny ehh ...

LOL k shall end a photo of me :)

ps: I LOVE/MISS MY QIQI :)

SHAN 不完美

Monday, June 28, 2010,

My New Hair Style n Welcome HsinWen back from Australia

Omg, when Im looking thru the picture, I realise I didn take picture with the main person, Hsin wen... dot dot dot

Ok we make cardboard for hsinwen return ...

Fiona n Leon is arguing between the two cardboard .. omg ...

Alot of her fren went to airport to fetch her, it really sweet :)

and hsinwen bf give her a dozen of red roses ...it really very sweet of his bf ...

Some time I do hope my love one will do this to me, yea ...

I love the Sunflower which Jasmine they all bought for HsinWen, So I borrow it to take some picture :)

Hsin Wen do enjoy ur one month holiday in Singapore ehh ..:)

After settle some problem in my house, Daniel ask me to go his Mummy's salon to find him ..
He wanna practice his wash hair skill using my head LOL ...

And yea, He gotta me a new hair style .. he perm my hair ... and ya ..

I LOOK SO LADY-LIKE .. haha shu nv lehh ...

So not use to it ...

What you all think of my new hair style ehh ?? tagg me in my tagboard, my tagboard seem dead!

ps: Thank Daniel's mummy for the chicken pancake, it taste very nice :) tqtq

SHAN 不完美

Sunday, June 27, 2010,

Ok Start my 27062010 post with a cute chilli stick ...

It 27th ... the date which I always waiting for every month ... but yeah, just smile ..
I think, the only date that i can think of him is 27th of every month bah ...
I only remember the sweet thing he do for me ... Thou it not alots but at least there is ...

QiQi and Cindy is staying over at my house ... :)
Shall end my post with another chilli stick picture ...

ps: I Still Do <3 n care for him .. stupid ehh .. I knew it

SHAN 不完美

Saturday, June 26, 2010,

Dinner at Singapore Flying Club with my dearest girls.

Although we got lost for 1 and a half hours in Seletar area ... omg !!!

We craps in e car ... we will so hungry ... we laugh out loud ... we bully Mandy Ng ...

We do everything together ... We have so many memories together ..

It's been so many years we first know each other ...

from different family backgroung, different class, different personality...

Thou one by one we got our own stuffs to do , but we never forget one another ..

we always be there for one another ..

Thank for being with me for the past 8 years .. <3>

SHAN 不完美

Sunday, June 20, 2010,

SenTosa Trip 20062010

20062010

Sentosa trip with Xie Shun, Adeline, Rebecca, Alton, Leon, Hui Ling, Veron, An Qi ...
Nice Trip, It's A great day Actually :)

We Snap lots of picture haha, when is the last time i smiling lik this huh ???
Adeline tell me, " Very long never see yu smile so happily liao.. "
I was like ... dunno what to say and just smile at her ...

And YEAHH ...QiQi is sleeping beside me now... haha envious ???
its so so so cute <3

I kinda tired needed sleep, wish me with a sweet dream can ...
GOOD NITEX !!!

ps: I just hope that he will settle his stuffs asap, I want to see his smile again... I love his smile you know..

SHAN 不完美

Friday, June 18, 2010,

QiQi Make My Day Beautiful !

It's Jump Onto My Leg ...

It's Kiss Me ...

It's Lick Me ...

It's Jump And Play Around With Me ...

It's Use It's Innocent Eyes To Look At Me ...

It's Sit Quietly On My Leg ...

Its seem to know I'm in a low mood for the past few days ...

Its seem to know I'm feeling trouble ...

QiQi Give Me My 1st Smile Today :)

How I Wish I'm Still Just A Kid ...

SHAN 不完美

Thursday, June 17, 2010,

I Still Do Hope You Are There ... Beside Me ...

The past few days has been like Years to me...

Everything seem to have stop since 14062010...

Days pass like years,
Times seem to stop.

I'm finding stuff to occupy myself, watch comedy, go out with friends, find things to make me laugh to make me smile ...

But to no valid ...

Every Night, when I off my bedroom light and went to bed, I'll start to think of him again, I'll start to cry again ...

But I always told myself that, at least I still have "The Pooh" you give me on my birthday.

Still remember, I name it after your name...

It has been always sitting on my bed side, everytime I see it, I'll think of you..

But yeah, what can I do...

ps: How I wish you are just beside me, thou u doesn't even care at all ...

I'm Useless !

SHAN 不完美

梁靜茹-情歌

我的天长地久。。。

SHAN 不完美

Wednesday, June 16, 2010,

Kiss the Rain (Yiruma)

My Favourite SunFlower n Nice Melody

SHAN 不完美

看清了

说真的，我一直以为我是勇敢的，是坚强的。但是后来我才发现，那些都只是我的以为罢了。

这一次，
他一棒把我从梦里打醒。没错，爱情就像是游戏，谁先付出真心，谁就是输家。这一次，是我太天真了，我输了。但是以后，我不会再输了。

无意中，看了一部戏，它说：
“爱情九十九分是假的吧，只有一分是真实的 “痛”。痛是真实的，好笑的是，你身上并没有伤口，你不会流血，可是这种痛会扎实的咬着你不放。直到把你的心咬下来，才能摆脱这种痛。没有了心，就不痛了。”
以前我的爱情里，我对他们的离开，只有感到抱歉，并没有痛。
这一次，我到底是这么了？

他并没有错，他有他的理由。
但是，傻的是我。你知道吗，如果他现在打一通电话给我，我会马上奔到他身边。

SHAN 不完美

Tuesday, June 15, 2010,

I Realise I'm Too Dumb

15062010
After hearin what you has said in e office today,
Say that I insist not to let you go when u say u can't commit..

I realise there's nothing as Forever or Trust ...
There's nothing as LOVE ..
I was thinking, why am I the only one feeling upset and breaking down for the break up of this relationship.
I thought u will be at least feeling abit Down or watever, but yeah i WAS wRONG..
I thought you do at least feel something but i was wrong...

Anyway, everything was only what i thought, what i assume, wasn't I ...
XS was right, I was too silly to think that I do mean something to you, and think that there is a place for me IN YOUR HEART...
I dunno if i should laugh out loud or cry out loud...
" CHUA SHAN SHAN, WHAT A DUMB GIRL YOU ARE HAHAZ"

You are just acting a show with me all along izzit???
I dunno how you feel, you never tell me nor show me ...

Seriously, I dun hate you nor blame you on anything...
i'll just blame myself for giving out my 100% <3>
And you know what, till now I still hope you'll give me a call or message ...
Yeah, I told you I was Dumb right...

I THINK I should remain single, I hate the feeling of watching the backview of my <3 ones leaving me behind and walking away from me ...

Ok, we can still be friend like we used to be
But I need time..
Cos I REALLY IN LOVE WITH U, everything is not a show .. get it?

ps: After reading C_ _ _ _ _ _ _'s Blog, I feel very uneasy
I become sensitive, I became to think alots of thing and scene that I imagine ..

SHAN 不完美

Monday, June 14, 2010,

I was feelin kinda ... I mean really low.

I didn't realise that my First Love end like this.

All along I mean nothing at all,
he choose to give me up
he choose to left me behind
he choose to hurt me

I always thought that my love for him has not even reach 70%,
but actually it more than i expected ...

I'm holding on to this relationship
I tryin my best to give watever I can
But I get nothing left now ...
I lost him
I lost my dream

I dun want it to end
I dun want him to turn his back at me
I dun want him to leave me behind

I just want a Simple Relationship with him
But he make everything become so complicated
he has alot of un-settled stuff, thing that he seem to unable to settle forever.
I dunno why, but i really want to know why

I always wait for him to tell me more about himself about e problem he facing..
I always tell him I want to know more about him
But he promise n say nothing

That day I just want to have a face to face talk with you,
But you push me away..
u ignore me
u doesn't care about me
u didn't even care to take a look at me
The feeling was SUX
It a feeling of bein abandon BY YOU

Watchin your backview
I dunno why are u treating me this way

The guy ...
who used to hold my hand n tell me to follow u
who used to hug me n make me feel important
who used to say "I Love You" to me
who used to say "I'm Sorry, I can't accompany u"
who used to say "Message me when u reach home"
who used to give all his care n concern to me
who used to give me a Goodbye Kiss on my lip everyday
who used to webcam with me till midnite
who used to surprised me on my birthday
who used to protect me with his un-romantic way

Has vanished ... ...

We Promise to have a Pair of Couple Tees

We Promise to go Batam together

You forgotten everything ..

I dun want to cry in front of my friends
I dun want em to worry for me
But, I still can't let go of him, let go of this relationship

* You ask me to let u go
and I did
I just want You to be Happy

SHAN 不完美